gold dust woman.

Oh, hello there. I'm just here to tell you about my very interesting life as of late. Interesting in the sense that I've encountered a few very odd individuals in the last few days. Let me just tell you, I feel like some kind of mythical creature because of the things these people have said to me. First, a woman in a wheelchair, who had the dreadful scent of cigarettes and other unfortunate things, all mixing together to smell like the streets of Vegas, thought I was a vampire. I am 97.8% sure this woman was on heavy drugs. She stopped me and in a very serious tone said "Ma'am, can I ask you a question..." so I hesitantly said yes.. "Are you a vampire?". Of course I laughed it off and didn't respond but when I looked back up she was staring at me in such a serious and unidentifiable expression that I had no choice but to ask if she was serious. She told me she was, and repeated her question so I quickly said NO! Then she asked if I had been in the Twilight films, and raved about how much she loved them. After telling her multiple times that in no way was I a vampire, nor was I in the Twilight films, she finally shook her head in disbelief and said "ma'am I do not believe you" and she scooted away quickly in her jazzy. I was left stunned, wondering if this was real life.

Second, I was helping a patient at work, a man who seemed not all there. Let me tell you, he was not on this planet. He was living in a world I wanted no part of. I was helping him with an appointment and we were waiting patiently to hear back from a therapist. After a while of waiting uncomfortably and impatiently, I finally said "I'm sure they will be calling any second". My nose itched, so I wiggled it the way she does on the show Bewitched (I do this often).. and instantly the phone rang,. The man looked at me, shocked, and walked away in a zombie like trance. Truthfully, I felt kind of magical in that moment. I didn't want to help him anyway.

And finally - today as I was sitting at the desk, just minding my own business, a man walked up and said "why hey ladies.." and raised his eyebrows in a very displeasing way. I could have sworn the last time I looked, I was alone... So I turned around to double check, and sure enough, I was the only one at the desk. I didn't really know how to respond so I just said "ahhh I'm alone! You must be seeing ghosts!" and giggled awkwardly, when really I should have said HEY MY FACE IS UP HERE YOU JERK. He just laughed and continued on his way. I hope I never see him again.

ANYWAY! Here are some photos of life as I know it from the last week or so. I haven't been taking many pictures lately - so unlike me..

XX JR

colors of the rainbow.

I love Brad and his colorful suits. If only straight men would be so bold...

XX JR

he is just..

PERFECT. I always have a French boyfriend on hand. It's been Baptiste for the last couple of years.. But, I have decided to retire the boy and find the man. The man being Gaspard Ulliel. UGH. Get a load.

XX JR

welcome to the show.

I'm going through a bit of an awkward time. I've hit that point where I sort of need to figure out what I want to do with myself, or else I will continue to go on with this daily routine that I call my life...and I'll continue to feel this somewhat unsettling discontent. Trust me though, I'm working on getting out of it. Even in my social life I'm putting myself in situations that I wouldn't normally just jump into, and I'm forcing myself into new peoples lives. Yes, forcing. Tonight Ashlyn and I had a nice little adventure. We got airbrush tattoos, took pictures in a photo booth, and I shopped (I don't regret it for a second). Following our random moments at the mall we then took ourselves to Sam, and then to a carnival where Sam and Ashlyn proceeded to win fish; Melvin and Gertrude (Gertie). Sam and I claim Gertie as a love child and therefore she resides on my nightstand, in some tupperware. I do believe I'll try harder to find a nice bowl for her tomorrow. I was just too tired tonight. Bonsoir monde.

XX JR

to you and yours.

A note to all the (non-related)men in my life.. past, present, and future:

WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT TO JUST BE MY FRIEND?! In the event that I won't be your lover, you always then try to make my bff your new best girl friend, and brush me to the side. Good hell, this problem has haunted me my entire life. Will it ever end.

XX JR

and so on and so forth.

XX JR

wildfox2011.

The new Wildfox campaign is so Penny Lane it's making me insane. I love everything about it. Tell the world to buy me everything. I WANT TO BE PENNY LANE.

XX JR

lewks.

Here are my favorite lewks from the MTV movie awards as well as the CFDA's. I know I've said this before.. but I admire people who take risks and pull it off confidently, not those who take risks in a frightening "I do what I want because I'm weird" kind of way. I love a bit of sparkle, some magical beaded detail, and even Kristen's pinned up Balmain is working for me. It's funny, because when I saw that dress walk down the runway, oddly enough I thought that was something she would pick to wear to an event. And what do you know, she did! I'm winning. Anyway, I think my two favorite looks from the CFDA's were Karolina's hooded sparkler and Leigh's new bangs. Her dress looks great too (the coloring is absolutely perfect for her) but I really love her with heavy bangs. Pre-tay lay-day. CIAO.

XX JR

where is my mind.

I've been on a strange and uncomfortable streak. A streak of doing a lot of really random and unnecessary things that I wish I wouldn't do. Things like leaving my car running after I park, and walking a good 20 feet before realizing it. Or, after coming back out to my car at the end of an errand/work/whatever, I unlock my car door and then proceed to put my keys in my purse and still try to reverse. I've changed my nail color twice in the last three days, and I put my pants in my underwear drawer and my underwear in my closet. Clearly my mind is not where it needs to be right now, I'm never this much of an airhead and I'm incredibly annoyed with myself for doing these things more than once. Today, however, got better. Despite being tired from a 5am wakeup for work alarm, I managed to accomplish a lot today. I'm feeling a bit more like myself. I just wish I could quit thinking about one thing and realize what I mess I'm getting myself into. I don't see it happening though. I'm not exactly mad about it. GOODNIGHT.

XX JR